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Saturday, October 07, 2006 3:09 PM.
Storytelling by oen.
hey!
udah lama ngga ngomong yang jiji-jiji alias leme-leme.... skarang saatnya!
remember the last time i told you how proud i am, about my boyfriend?
udah beberapa saat ini gua kehilangan rasa bangga itu.. you know? remember the last time i told you how i lay lay lay lay aku jarang dibelay itu? yessss it hurtssss :-( hiks hiks
at the very time he said that he was gonna off to SG, take that internship thingy at some graphic house there for 3 months.. i was just grumbling, like, 3 months, uhh lama juga ya, but it's okay. 3 months nggak bakal berasa lah..
but i guess i'm wrong.
i've been tortured by this love-disease, since the day he flew. yes, i do missing him like hell!! feels like forever, you know?
and all we can do is, do text messaging. well it costs gopek per sms, for me, but it's okay.. hope it can cure my.. ahem, loneliness. (iya nih, norak banget ya?)
and, i'm pretty sure that he feels the same way. bo, beli pulsa di SG mahal ya? udah mahal, terima sms dari luar negeri bayar juga. jadi kesian :-( ahh.. but anyway, he keep sending me text messages anyway.. (dengan asumsi, gw pasti bales, kan?)
lalluu.. chatting, mesej, webcam-an, internet phone-an.. boooowwriiiingg!
and, for reminder, si pacar ini kerja, sibuk buk buk buk. if you know how's it like to be in a graphic house. damn!
for a friend, la, being in a long distance relationship... sucks! SUCKS BIG TIME!
and mostly, thinking about this, def def definitely ruins my mood. uhhh! i hate him! i hate him, I HATE HIM!!!
and those kinda feelings, like, just, vanished. i don't feel like i'm missing him. i don't feel like i wanna think about him. i don't feel like i'm waiting for his short messages... i don't feel like, love.. *sigh*
in fact, i think i just get used to it. to this without-him life. without missing him. without waiting his short messages... until today.
i went to some graphic house and get interviewed this morning. and to make it real short, i met some of my campus friends, had some chit-chatting a little, until that topic came up.
yup. my boyfriend thingy.
so i told them that bla bla bla, with that jaded tone, if you know what i mean, and bla bla bla bla bla bla..., just like it's not a great thing, well it's GREAT actually but i just not too excited to talk about that, but still, i tried to look that way..*sigh*
until.. until they gave that "look" on their faces like, "ANJRIT!" or "DAAAYMMN!". Seriously. and they keep telling that my boyfriend is GRRRRREEEAAATTTT, damn great! they also tell me that creative people at SG have those high standart and bla bla bla bla bla
and it's like, you know, had a slap on my face. HOW CAN I BE SO SELFISH, just thinkin about my feelings, my thoughts, my.. my.. mine.. mine.. ME!?
Like a movie, it starts to roll on my head.. the reason he gave a shot, the reason i support him, the dreams we're building on skies..... uhh, trust me, it's beautiful. it's even a whole lot better than UJAN DUREN MONTHONG!!!
then i drove back home with a broken feelings. pacar macem apakah aku ini? :-( hik hik.. maaf yah, sayang.
but still, long distance relationshit, ups, relationship SUCKS BIG TIME! ;-)
after felt like such a guilty fat ass, i start to feel 'these', again. that love-disease i've mentioned before. missing him. like hell. :-)
in fact, i know deep inside i'm so damn proud of him. Too proud, maybe. I'm feeling like i wanna tell all the person i knew in this universe that, "cowok gue, KP di singapur, bo.. lo tau singapur dong, kayak apa? coba bayangin graphic house disono.. ckck gokil kan?"
hahaa.. memang saya norak.... tapi pacar saya memang keren, ya kaaan? ;-)
ps. love you, you know i do.
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